I Could Make You Smile, If You Stayed Awhile... But How Long Will You Stay With Me Baby

One of my professors said something fantastic today.

[Your photographs] are like being in bed with a lover. You are too close to them at first and it isn't until later than you can find your distance and see everything.

Both parts of that statement are quite relatable right now.

I feel like I'm still stuck in that jazz song I mentioned when it was still the summer. Last year the instruments went from being seperated to together to create something intertwined. Now they have found their own seperate roles and are trying to flow together once again but are standing on different ends of the stage.

I could make you smile if you stayed a while
But how long will you stay with me baby

Because your candle burns too bright
Well, I almost forgot it was twilight
Even if I think that you are right
Well, I'm tired of being down, I got no fight

A Summer Wasting

I spent the summer counting down the days until I moved back to the city and my life could pick up where it left off. Now everything is different. I feel so lonely. So alone.

I'm stuck in a confusing limbo. My head hurts, my eyes feel drained and feel like I'm going to be sick to my stomach. I don't know what to do.

I just want to cry all the time.

I hope that this sorts out. Or it's going to be a long fall.